wish i had the ocourage to pull the trigger

i'd be better off dead

 

No you won't.

There is much more to life that you haven't experienced yet.

It's not that you don't have the courage to pull the trigger, it's the knowledge that you do matter to other people and that there is a chance that things will change that prevented you fron pulling the trigger.

 

i wish i had the courage too, my friend

 

Me too, thelast

 

That would break my heart...please know how much you are cared for...big hugs, J

 

if i had the trigger, i'd be dead a few months ago.

 

I have also said that for the longest time but never I guess you have put it as not having the "courage" to do so. I wish I could do it and just get everything over with, there is so much a person can take and it's always either close to the edge or it goes over it. At least this way when I'm gone I won't have to worry about anything, there will be complete nothingness ahead of me. On some days that would feel better than being depressed and feeling unloved by everyone including my family =(

 

Depression is a cancer. I cant really say anything that will change your mind. This site will give you some comfort depending on the specifics of your situation. Otherwise your best bet is the doctor, a specialist. If your in a bad situation/relationship/family.. maybe move away when you get a chance.

 

:hug:

Did anything specific make you feel like that? How are you feeling now?

 

I don't think you would be better off Sooz, but I can understand why you are reaching that conclusion. I wish I could syphon even a little of the love we feel for you into you so you would love yourself. You need to give yourself credit for the things you do and accomplish, but instead you overlook these things and only see the bad. The other is there if you allow yourself to see it. Take care of yourself hun. You are too valuable to lose. :hug:

 

you would never be better off dead... you have so much to live for, so much to look forward to whether you believe it or not. There has been many times I wanted to pull the trigger.. and if I would have had one, I would have... but then I look back and realize I am glad I never had one in the first place.

No matter what you think, there is many people who would care if you left this world... even though I do not know you, I would care.