Life just doesn't, really, seem worth it to me, anymore. Struggle through shitty, boring, unstimulating school every day just so I can do what... go home and be alone? I'm always alone. I'm so tired of being alone that I could scream, or cry, rather, which I do often and is hard to admit. And it's not much better around other people -- the loneliness. You think it will be and you think it might be, but then it's just the same. old. crap. Same old flaws that humans have (and I know that I have them, too) and I just want to throw up. It will never get any better. I don't enjoy anything anymore and I'm only 20 and I just wish that I would die. I'm so tired of life and thoughts and opinions and judgments and sadness and confusion and people and choices and how abstract everything is. I just want to sleep forever. I just can't take being conscious anymore.