I can't ask for help, or I'll be accused of manipulation. My wife made me leave to get 8 weeks of counseling to "get better." I didn't even feel depressed, but at 4 weeks, I'm feeling really alone and I hurt so bad. I really need to cry, but I can't. All this pain with no exit point. Want to cut but that's for attention seekers, right? Maybe typing in a forum in my car in a kmart parking lot will help. I don't even have a desire for something else. I don't know what good feels like. I want it to end.