I have been planning to hold off on any rash decisions to end my life until i see what happens after valentines day (if my boy takes me bac or not) but i odnt think i can last this long! i need to do it now! i dont kno how, but i cant keep living like this! every day is so hard, i have to fight so hard against my own mind every day and im tired of it. If i cant b wit him, i cant b alive! i want to go....NOW!