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stay safe...sleep easy..the pain you would feel afterwards would be worse than the pain you feel now. you are struggling, but dont give in to your emotions, and thats what it is, emotional turmoil playing with your head, lack of sleep, stress, anger, confusion, exhaustion (physical emotional and mental)guilt, it confuses reality and its so easy to make the wrong decision for the wrong reason. there is help out there, just reach out and vent...some one will always listen
take care and again..stay safe... :hug: