Wishing I didn't know what I was missing

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Cariad_Bach, May 8, 2012.

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  1. Cariad_Bach

    Cariad_Bach Staff Alumni

    I feel like I'm in a permanent state of crisis.

    I feel like the urge to force myself off this mortal coil is a constant companion.

    I'm never going to get better while I stay in the stagnant reality that is my life.

    I'm living for the times when I feel free of these feelings, and free to be a 'me' that I can't be otherwise.

    And those times are not enough. I should be grateful for what I've got, but I'm not. They make me selfish. They make me want it more.
     
  2. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    G'day, there. Sorry to hear times are rough.

    You said that you're living for the times when you "can be a 'me' I can't be otherwise." Who is that "me" and what gets in the way of you being that person? Maybe there are ways to do that, which you haven't come across yet but others here might think of. I hope you'll stay safe and continue to explore ways to make life what you want it to be.
     
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