Title says it all, I guess. I'm a pretty (pretty much always) solitary person from the U.S., living in Japan right now, teaching. I have what I guess could be a mix between a gift and a curse - I just don't tend to get lonely. I spend pretty much all my time that's not work-related alone and when I do force myself to do something with other people it's an experience kind of like holding my breath - I can only do it for so long and afterwards I'm bound to have a headache. I'm in my late twenties now and since way back when I've been like this. I've had times when I really forced myself to be around others and managed to make what I would like to call close friends but those friendships now hang by a thread and I haven't made any new ones since. I've given up on relationships for the time being because even having that on my mind makes it impossible to talk with women given my total lack of experience to date. Moreover I can't say for certain I'm even really interested (not gay, just not interested). It gets hard though, especially when I've spent too much time avoiding people and my thoughts start to kind of go stale - too little outside input. Conversely, too much time forcing myself to be around others and I wind up consistently hating myself. Recently though, maybe just because of how impersonal and harsh Japanese culture can be, there have been a few times when I've felt that all-to-human need to be around other people. It doesn't last long but on those occasions somehow it becomes a little easier connect. It's honestly a pretty new feeling for me and it takes a lot to actually bring me there but it's been making me think that maybe it's less of a weakness and more of a strength - I just don't know how to bring it out really. Sorry if this was a bit long, no need to read it all, was half just to get my thoughts out; I'm just curious how and when some of you go through loneliness and what value you think there is to it. Feel free to share any of your own experiences.