Getting very sick of my friend slagging off my potential unborn child. He thinks it's a bad idea me having a baby, which, to be fair, it probably is, but when I've been in a state of constant depression and wishing for suicide for the past 4 months, and I find something that just fills me with hope and happiness (my potential baby) it can't possibly seem like a bad idea. Thinking about my baby growing and kicking and then thinking about holding it and making it laugh when it's born fills me with more happiness than I've ever felt, longing, love. The breaks I get from my depression are just amazing. In fact, I'm barely depressed any more lately now that I think I'm pregnant. Just mostly happy. Then, of course, there has to be one friend who ruins it all. Who thinks it's funny to joke about me having a miscarriage. Who states that he thinks it would be hilarious if my baby died. Yes, very hilarious. Because if my babies dies, I might very well go too. Honest to God, though, despite telling him to STOP joking and that it WASN'T FUNNY AT ALL he still continued to the point where I left the classroom I was in with him to go downstairs to where my other friends were sitting and cry. Then, after my boyfriend and a mutual friend told him that it wasn't something to joke about and that he'd upset me badly, he still didn't show any remorse or act like he cared at all, or even fucking understood that what he did was fucking horrible. When I find out for sure if it's there, he'd better fucking stop it, or else in my hormonal, emotionally overreactive state, I am going to fucking lose it with him. Even the thought of my child existing makes me happier than anything and he's the only one being fucking awkward who can't just accept that I'm happy for once. Has to be pedantic, constantly telling me that a child will ruin my life, can't see the fucking good in anything. Honestly, this isn't just like, a casual friend he's slagging off or anything. It's my baby. My unborn child, and he thinks it's funny to joke about it dying or stuff like that. IT'S NOT FUCKING FUNNY. AT ALL.