Im New here and suffer multiple chronic pain issues that have made me disabled ,now my boyfriend has stolen from me ,he took enough of my pain meds I will be out for a week ,I'm suicidal enough but now going through withdrawal plus the pain I endure anyhow will be twice as much . I CANNOT believe he did this to me and that makes it the worst . No one loves me ,that is how I feel and I've been planning my own death for months now anyhow because I cannot stand the pain . Now Im scared to live ,scared of withdrawal,scared of living the rest of my life like this or worse . I have not one friend here and dying I would be at peace . Im scared to die but would rather die then go on living like this . I have lupus,my spine is so messed up I can hardly walk plus many other issues . I see no other option . Please help me .