I don't want to be here. I get sick to my stomach when I eat so I am barely eating. I cannot concentrate. I can barely think of anything beyond death. I do not understand it. I know wanting to die is wrong and selfish. I know i have a wonderful husband who loves me unconditionally. But I can't stop thinking about it. Why won't it just stop! And then I sit here and have to listen to a colleague suck his teeth, another laugh like a f***ing hyena and yet another crunch chips so loud it is obnoxious. I get angry and switch from wanting to hurt myself to hurting them. Such little things that should be inconsequential are insurmountable. Make it stop. Someone, please!!! I can't take this anymore!