Hi, my name is Ivan Bezdruzyei (it means "without friends" in Russian). I haven't had any friends in 7 years, and even then it was just one. Now, it feels like even if I told her I was going to end it all, she wouldn't respond right away. FWIW, I'm not going to. I'm just using that as an example of how isolated I am. Even my family basically ignores me. Considering that families should to have unconditional love, my situation is pretty bleak. Once I thought/hoped this was just a phase, but seven years in utter isolation is too much for anyone to bear, let alone someone already dealing with severe depression. It also doesn't help that being unemployed, I pretty much only leave house to do shopping. I only came on here out of boredom. I'm sure everyone else here has their own garbage to sort through without concerning themselves over mine.