My girlfriend has been away about a week on vacation out of the country. In another week we are meeting up in another state then the week after that she comes home. I feel like she's the only one I can can really talk to, the only one who truly understands me. She's been gone so long it feels as though she was never real, just a fond imaginatory character I devised to make myself feel purposeful & loved. Without her life is hollow & joyless & as life's stresses & annoyances fight me, I don't have it in me to fight back without her help. In my head I see 1 week of her not even knowing it happened. The following week some confusion as to where I am, but no certaintys or ways in which to find out. Then 2 weeks from today she'll come home and discover the truth. By then I'm sure adults would be prepared to watch her to ensure she doesn't mimic me. I know it's not the right choice, but with every passing moment it's appeal only grows stronger.