How do you long timers do this? I literally woke up this morning and thought of actually somehow ‘doing it’....what the hell.....I want to be here but I don’t....please, give me some advice. How does one keep doing this day after day.....I have it all .... sorry, just had to rant....fear of hell and love of my family keeps me here. I have no desire to take care of myself....eat well or exercise....wish I could trade places with someone who actually wants to be here but is suffering from an illness....my illness will not kill me quick enough,,,,how sick is that......