I have strong feelings for my ex but I've encouraged her to go on a date with somebody she met online and who works in a store in town. She was prepared to be with me despite my head being in a dark and complicated place. She really loved me and I've never had this kind of admiration in my life before so I didn't know quite how to handle it. We met up the other week and I told her that somebody else asked me out on a date to which I declined in respect to her because she insisted I am her soul mate and the love of her life and that I was enough for her but she still wants to see other people because I wasn't commited enough. I'm so confused, I'm going to be left alone and single despite her promises and she'll be riding along all happy. I only egged her onto the date because I didn't want her catching my misery and pain. It's a shock because she said she wanted me badly.