Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by denny_morgan, Aug 31, 2007.

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  1. denny_morgan

    denny_morgan New Member

    When I meet a new woman who I become interested in, I am always used. Whether they use me for sex or favors, it never fails. Every time I fall in love my heart is broken. Each time is far worse than the previous. After this particular case the pain is unbearable. I work with a woman who I've fallen in love with over the last year and we have a great relationship together. Until yesterday when I learned she was keeping the fact that she had a boyfriend secret from me but not from others. Other people didn't want to tell me about it because of how much they could see that I sincerely cared for this woman. They knew I would be upset and so did she. Why couldn't she tell me? Was she scared of this exact sort of response? I do feel suicidal right now. I have been through this before. I get hurt and I think about suicide for awhile and in time, it passes. I just don't know if I can cut it anymore. This cycle has ravaged my self worth and I don't know how to deal with it anymore. Can anyone help me before my pain gets the best of me?
  2. JustWatchMeChange

    JustWatchMeChange Well-Known Member

    That sucks, but have you talked with her about it? I know what you mean about being used. My wife tried to murder me caus I had built up assets and she wanted them all. Now I feel lost and alone. But we gotta hang in there and who knows?

  3. Hi Denny. I understand the pain you are experiencing, in a way. I do think women have unfairly treated me, though society has been mean to me, not just women. However, I do have my suspicions about something, well, anyways, I am going to post about something regarding how hurt I have been be something which happened six months ago, and how it has been eclipsed by more pain far worse than that. I'll post about it later tonight, so look for it on SF sometime then. In the meantime, read this post, if you'd like to : http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?t=25916
    Also, my msn is at soulstice_renovatio@hotmail.com
    Take care.
  4. denny_morgan

    denny_morgan New Member

    I haven't talked with her about it yet. I am so scared of the outcome of that conversation. Just thinking about it makes me sick and causes me to vomit. I have been throwing up all morning. I have to see her in a little while, mainly because I work with her but, she does want to talk.
  5. Infinite

    Infinite New Member

    I know how you feel. Relationships always bring the most pain when they're broken. The best advice I can give you is to just not involve yourself with her anymore - it will only lead to more pain. If she does not want you in a relationship then she doesn't deserve you. I know, that's hard to think about considering that you were in love with her. But slowly, I think you'll find the pain from this relationship to go away. Just forget about her.

    Edit: I'm sorry. I wasn't aware that you worked with her. I'd say, just avoid talking to her beyond the minimum.
  6. People should not lie to other people, especially in a relationship. Women ought to keep their word to men they "claim" they "love".
  7. Infinite

    Infinite New Member

    I agree. I think too many people jump into relationships too quickly and do not have enough time to evaluate the person who they claim to "love"...

    Trust is also an important part to any relationship. If the woman I "love" keeps things from me, I would no longer want to be in a relationship with her.

  8. I am very guilty of believing in women too easily. I believe the lies about how they want to rescue me from my situation, then they cancel that on me several times, giving me various reasons for why they cancelled. Them lying to me about which point they began loving me at. Them comparing me to their ex-boyfriends. Them telling me horrible things about their ex-boyfriends, yet they show more respect to them than they do to me. Them breaking up with me a few days prior to my scheduled visits to them, their reason being because of "psychosis" when it is evident that the real reason may have been pregnancy, caused by them cheating on me or not telling me about sexual relations they had recently prior to knowing me. It is really awful.
  9. jigman

    jigman Member

    i no how u feel mate..is it the maybe factor...tats wot i hav problems wiv..like ur thinking has she kept it from me for a reason or just for the attension or wotever..an it drives u insane it feels..the vomiting thing is unbelievable..u aint done nothing wrong..just question her on it and get it all out in the open

  10. This I do understand. The stress caused by finding out that someone you loved, lied to you, is unbearable. I vomited last night for similar reasons. Plus, this being the six-month anniversary of my being crushed by my first love, it makes matters worse. She needs to be honest with you, or else, she is just pathetic.
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