Wonder how should I put it....

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by expressive_child, Nov 12, 2007.

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  1. expressive_child

    expressive_child Well-Known Member

    I don't know if this is even considered self harm/substance abuse but I assume as long as I am doing something and if I am in need of doing it to feel better and it causes me harm in one way or another, I consider it self harm I guess but just not physically, at least not directly.

    Some time ago, I wrote about consuming 'something' (a mixture of two ingredients that produces a mellow high feeling when consumed which I cannot reveal, unfortunately). At one time when I first discovered it, I wasn't addicted nor abusing it but I try it occasionally just to feel good. These few weeks has been insane, its like I am consuming it all the time cause it helps me to ignore and forget things that torments me.

    I have to admit it interrupts my ability to concentrate and at times I even end up talking to myself unknowingly! I feel like I am now addicted to it, but then again, I feel like I have merely developed a psycological need on it or something like that. But I just can't help it anymore, since it helps me to forget and at times makes my happy even though I am really down. I wish I can just reveal it.

    I know it may not work for some people, maybe just me I don't know but hey....I guess I just can't. Is there any way to cope with this kind of addiction? I mean, how do people usually cope with addiction and/or substance (or whatever its called)? If there is no way, then I guess I just have to go on this way, better than cigarettes or other illicit drugs I guess..haha....
     
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