Starting to wonder if this mental health assessment is even worth it. Everyone's treating me differently. I can understand my mum expecting me to snap. The only person treating me the same is my friend Jade. I've all but lost contact with Ebz and Adam is acting like there's nothing wrong anymore. Ebz why the hell have we lost touch? Why does it feel like you're going to criticize me about everything? And Adam, when the hell did you stop caring when you claimed that you would always be there for me. I know I'm a handful but seriously I don't want to lose you. I hardly ever talk to you about things now because I already feel like I'm being burden. Just once, I would like someone to look at me and ask me what's wrong. Instead people act as if I'm completely fine now I've got this stupid assessment. It's driving me mad. I literally feel like I'm falling apart and I'm going to completely lose myself. I keep looking at my arm and thinking I've ruined everything. Nothing good will come of this assessment they'll most likely turn around and say I'm doing it for attention and say there's nothing wrong with me. Then I really will lose everyone and I seriously can't have that.