I have a "best friend" but all she does is use me, she is my connection to the past but I'm sick of her, I cant deal with her anymore, its an unhealthy relationship and I'm starting to freaking hate her, she is the most self-centered, shallow, low, horny, B**** I have ever met. I really hate her. I'm making excuses to leave her and not talk to her, because every time ive tried to leave before she guilt trips me! shes manipulative. she has started to act gay with me, I think its because she knows I have a bit of interest in females, though not as much as males, and Is trying to make me fall in love with her or something so I wont leave. I used to think that she cared, but now I realize she doesn't care about me, I'm her "Rock" the person she can always fall back on, but she doesn't care that im shattering and breaking, she doesn't want to help me, she only cares if im breaking because then she wont have someone to fall back to and the spot light will be off of her. I don't think anyone gets how much I am starting to hate her, I seriously just want to beat her up, and then leave her in some dark, filthy, grimy, alley. the thing is ive been through so much with her, and she is my last real connection to someone I love that is dead. I want to leave her, but I don't feel like I can, and I hate her for it.