I don't know if I'll ever be able to leave this place with these horrible people. Yesterday was my birthday and my dad told me I was making everyone miserable when I wasn't even saying anything to anyone. I was just sitting there being quiet like I usually am because when I talk no one listens anyway. I told HIM I was sorry after he made me cry in public. I would be happy if I could but I just can't. Not when my family keeps rubbing my face in how dissapointed they are in me. Not when they keep telling me that I'm not ok, not functioning, not "normal." I just need time to get back on my feet but I can't seem to do it fast enough. I'll never ever be good enough. They keep pushing me and pushing me and I'm close to the edge already. I'm going to fall off if I don't escape from them. If I'm alone I might be ok. These people aren't helping. They make me feel so worthless. They make me feel like nothing. I'm starting to hate them.