Sometimes I feel like this is the case. When I listen to music from my past, or see pictures, or think about people I used to love. I feel like my world already ended and all of this is just passing time watching the beginning of a new era I'm not even a part of. Spectating. Because I have no will to make anything new or "Start over." Not in a depressing way or a "lack of energy / focus / money" kind of way either, I just kind of don't really want to. It's weird because it's interesting... I can't stop watching my siblings grow up, and watching my parents get older, and watching my friends have kids and graduate college and just... I don't know, it's amazing. Not depressing, I'm not jealous, I'm not sad, it's just kind of... I don't know. Outside looking in I guess. Anyone understand this? What the hell is this?