i think that i am truly the world's greatest, most disappointing loser who is still alive (assuming anyone in as bad a state as i am in would have offed themselves a long time ago.) lets see, I'm 23, lazy, never had a girlfriend, a job, any true friends, any confidence, EVER. still dependent on mommy (who is 54 and not in the best of health) and daddy (58, and though he is built like a machine, i think his disappointment of me might be causing him to kill himself through lack of sleep.) planning on growing and selling marijuana when they are too old to maintain things the way they are (as i see no other means of being able to sustain myself), planning on purchasing a gun in case cops catch wind of my endeavor and doing what i deem appropriate. I spend all my time distracting myself with drugs, video games, and basically entertainment of any kind. I don't know what I am to do, I can't be a "normal" person, as my physical condition doesn't permit me to do so. My parents no longer feel sorry for me (not that i want them to) and are now haggling me everyday to just "go to school" and "do something with my life" i wish, believe me, i wish. If i could drive, and see properly, i would have no excuse, and even in my current state, i don't really have much of an excuse, except mental barriers that i cannot overcome. I tried going to a therapist, but they all come to the same conclusions, that somehow sitting in a circle, and talking about my issues will help, WHAT A JOKE. Or popping pills, again, an even greater joke IMO. I am the EPITOME AND PHYSICAL EMBODIMENT OF LOSER, FAILURE, SHAME, AND DISAPPOINTMENT. I am no longer suicidal, at least I can say that, but the shame that i live with is starting to take its toll. so yea, i am the world's biggest loser, a real scumbag, the type of person you see on the occasional "see it to believe it" documentary about people.