I have been on Venlafaxine for 2 months or so now. They won't increase my dose past 75mg as my heart is beating very fast & I need an ecg before they will consider increasing it. In my wisdom/stupidity depending on how you look at it I decided I would self medicate & take a higher dose :unsure:. As a result I had to phone the GP to request another prescription. It didn't go down well & he kept asking where my other prescription was as I had been given a months supply only a week ago. I tried to fob him off & say I'd lost it but then I ended up telling him that it was finished. He said he was going to call an ambulance & I refused so he said that I had to go to the health centre within the hour! Then 5 mins later he phoned me at work & said I was at high risk of seizures, heart problems etc. He demanded that I go to the surgery straight away & said it would be best if I had someone to accompany me. I said as I was at work I couldn't leave straight away & I would be there within the hour as planned, I also explained that I would be going alone as my family don't know about my depression. He was quite angry & I felt that he was shouting at me :cry:, he kept saying my health was more important than my job & I was like yeah see you soon so my colleagues didn't get wary. I kinda freaked before I left for the docs & took a whole load of tablets to calm me down. When I got to the surgery they went through all the risks & I said I was aware of them. They gave me another prescription but put me on a daily dispense of 75 mg, so now I need to collect my meds every morning from the chemist like some addict collecting their methadone. I just don't know what to do now, I feel so lost & I don't think I'll cope with such a low dose. I know it's my own fault for taking the tablets but I also feel none of the docs or that take me seriously. My CPN actually said to me today, just be honest & say that the increased dose is making you feel better (which it is) & then they might prescribe that amount for you! I was like how stupid do you think I am? If they are not prepared to double my dose to 150 then they aren't exactly going to say yeah sure, take however many you want! Now I feel ill, it's nerves & anxiety rather than the meds doing it. It doesn't help that I have barely ate or slept in almost a week. I just feel like throwing in the towel, I don't wanna fight this anymore :cry: I'm not even expecting replies to this, I just needed to type & keep busy.