I don't necessarily feel suicidal. Not today anyway. I have had a lovely weekend with my fiance. We have been out to eat nearly every day all weekend. I treated him to a carvery at his favourite restaurant for his birthday and got him and me matching tattoos for his birthday. It felt so so so nice this weekend. To just feel chilled out and relax with no worries. It felt so good to be Alex again, even if it was even for a few days.
A few days before he came to see me I took a few too many tablets and had some pains in my stomach. I didn't go to the hospital or anything but it doesn't hurt anymore. I am feeling worried for myself. I feel like I could do it again at any moment. I am also worried because I can feel myself getting worse but I can't get in to see my doctor and I have now run out of my citalopram. I don't know what I can do. Do I go to an open access centre or do I try and go to A&E and ask a doctor for a script? I don't want to waste A&E's time but I have absolutely no time at all till next week to see my GP and I really need my tablets. I am worried because I feel like this week is going to be too much. I am going to be working 78 hours without a day off. All combined with 12 and 14 hour shifts. Really think I am going to struggle this week and don't know what to do
A few days before he came to see me I took a few too many tablets and had some pains in my stomach. I didn't go to the hospital or anything but it doesn't hurt anymore. I am feeling worried for myself. I feel like I could do it again at any moment. I am also worried because I can feel myself getting worse but I can't get in to see my doctor and I have now run out of my citalopram. I don't know what I can do. Do I go to an open access centre or do I try and go to A&E and ask a doctor for a script? I don't want to waste A&E's time but I have absolutely no time at all till next week to see my GP and I really need my tablets. I am worried because I feel like this week is going to be too much. I am going to be working 78 hours without a day off. All combined with 12 and 14 hour shifts. Really think I am going to struggle this week and don't know what to do
