Worse as I've got older

[Eppyfish]

I've always been a bit of a weirdo, but have somehow managed to appear "normal" for most of the time anyway. But as I've got older (I'm 60 now) I'm finding it much harder to hide that part of me. I'm very like my dad who had anxiety and depression and was larger than life the majority of the time. But he also had a very dark side which came out big style later in his life. He was accused of "interfering" with young mentally handicapped teenage boys (which was never proven) and then after my mother died he picked up young teenage boys in bars and I caught him in bed with one.

Anyway, I'm not like that - thankfully! But I do have a very weird side where I think dark thoughts and internalise everything. When I'm like this I just want to be on my own.

Is it just me? Or is anyone else like this? And has anyone else experienced things like this progressing with age?

 

[A-Roc]

I’m weird too. Getting worse for me as well…I’m 62 now…I am sending you hugs

 

[KM76710]

I will be 60 in December, most everybody that knows me do describe me as unusual. I admit that I have never fit in with others all that well and am more than a bit different.

 

[Tragikexit]

I’m 46F and im getting weirder as I age. Probably isolation making me not know how to act normal with people anymore.

 

[Eppyfish]

Hi all. Thanks for your replies. I'm glad it's not just me! Wishing you all a weird, but wonderful, day 🙂🙂🙂

 

[Ziggy]

People would say that I'm odd or weird or antisocial, unattractive etc. etc. but you have to decide upon what qualities you think are important. I'd like to be a good person, not sure I succeeded with that, but at least I'm not a bad person. I guess I'm fine with that.

 

[Widowedvegan]

66 turning 67 next month if I make it there…
I have felt like I was Way different from Everyone else All of my life!
Getting older has only magnified the Difference!
When I was in my teens and twenties I seemed older than my peers…
Now that I’m an “old” lady I feel like I look, think and act Much younger!
The only problem is that even though I can “enjoy” ( I use the word enjoy lightly because I don’t enjoy much of anything )some of the perks of being older - like having a Free Travel pass - I feel like I am also being judged and discriminated against because of my age!

 

[Livelife]

My thoughts are fear filled today, can't get away from them. I'm 67 and feeling it physically. If healthy(-ier) I wouldn't be but the medical issues keep me tired and mentally off (weird) so much. I can still act childlike which I am glad for it still being there but I have aged in the past 5 years, if I still had the volume and mass of curly hair I had before then it would hide it better. For someone with disease I still look fit, still can do any yoga posture and sustain, do hard physical work at times but I'm just bone weary much of the time, feeling the deterioration that comes from what I have. I'm not scared of death but of the way I know my body will end.....bedridden, dependent and in pain...unless another event comes in first to take me out. I pray that happens because I hate living with the fear of what probably will be, I've taken care of patients with these diagnoses and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
I just needed to share the thoughts with someone. Thanks.

 

[SillyOldBear]

My thoughts are fear filled today, can't get away from them. I'm 67 and feeling it physically. If healthy(-ier) I wouldn't be but the medical issues keep me tired and mentally off (weird) so much. I can still act childlike which I am glad for it still being there but I have aged in the past 5 years, if I still had the volume and mass of curly hair I had before then it would hide it better. For someone with disease I still look fit, still can do any yoga posture and sustain, do hard physical work at times but I'm just bone weary much of the time, feeling the deterioration that comes from what I have. I'm not scared of death but of the way I know my body will end.....bedridden, dependent and in pain...unless another event comes in first to take me out. I pray that happens because I hate living with the fear of what probably will be, I've taken care of patients with these diagnoses and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
I just needed to share the thoughts with someone. Thanks.

Sorry to hear you are struggling so. Getting old is a wretched process. I, also, am tired of feeling ill and having few resources. I don't know what your diagnosis is but know there are many horrible ones out there. I just had a friend die with Parkinsons. A horrible disease. But I am glad you can still act childlike, at least once in a while. And still seem fit. I do not fear being dead, but I do fear the process of getting there. I hope your passing comes easier then you expect.

 

[Livelife]

Sorry to hear you are struggling so. Getting old is a wretched process. I, also, am tired of feeling ill and having few resources. I don't know what your diagnosis is but know there are many horrible ones out there. I just had a friend die with Parkinsons. A horrible disease. But I am glad you can still act childlike, at least once in a while. And still seem fit. I do not fear being dead, but I do fear the process of getting there. I hope your passing comes easier then you expect.

Thank you for that Barb. My cousin had Parkinsons, it is definitely a harsh disease to have to live through and with.
I'm sorry to hear of you experiencing the loss of of a friend.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I don't know if I'm getting weirder as I get older, hahaha. (I'm in mid-life.) I do notice I can't hide or cover up when I'm feeling badly as well as I used to, though. Things leak out when I'm at work. I tell a white lie, saying I'm dealing with headache or another benign excuse. Anyways, that's what I notice about myself.

 

[puffymilk]

I feel the same way. I feel like it'll get weirder as time goes by.

 

[AmberMarie]

my favorite things to say is i am not weird... i am Odd... and i am proud to be odd. It makes others laugh. i myself am 52... and i tend to wonder if age does have something to do with it. Not that it brings on the oddness... or weirdness in others... but that with age, we tend to stop giving a shit about what others think and begin to allow our oddness... weirdness out to be seen. Either that or we are just all too tired of hiding it and can no longer control it. Enjoy and embrace it!