I've just recently started cutting again (keeps me from doing something worse).. ..but its getting out of control. i'm having a hard time stopping. in the last 2 weeks i've covered myself in "marks". tonight i decided to count them (maybe that wasn't a good idea).. in 2 weeks i have amounted (if counted correctly) over 870 "marks".. it feels like a slow suicide.. and its worrying me. It hurts to move (though the pain is comforting). i like being hugged for multiple reasons.. 1. Hugs always feel nice. 2. it reopens my "marks". 3. It lets me re-live the pain.. This isn't good and i'm starting to fear i won't wake up one of these morning. People say.. "once you get a tattoo you have to get more and more".. .. this is worse..