This year has been the most terrible year ever in my life. I got married and going through a divorce in the same year. Still dealing with the scars of her attacking me twice (even stayed a week in the hospital because I tried to kill myself). I met this girl on halloween and clicked hard with her and her with me but now she wants to casual date. I've been real heavy with her on the phone and don't know if she even wants to bother with me, and on top of all that I have to live with the fact that due to a very stupid decision I made 10 years ago I'm going through all of this. I wish I wasn't borned and I'm feeling like I want out of this life. Please help me to end this. Thanks.