I have literally spent the entire day on the couch. Sometimes crying sometimes just laying. The only thought running through my head is that I just dont want to do this anymore. I want it to all be over. I feel empty and lonely. I have screwed up my life so badly, and I know that I deserve to feel the way I do now. The right thing to do would be to take the pain I deserve but I dont want to anymore. It is just too hard. In the long run I dont think anyone would even care. It just feels like there is no point anymore.