I think the worst thing about suicide (at least for non terminally ill non assisted suicide) is that I have to do it in secret. No one will be there to support me when I die. I cannot speak with anyone I know, because they will call the police and put us in a loony bin. I have to wrap things up as best I can, linger around knowing I will die, and then wait for the right opportunity to do so. It is very frustrating, I cannot even really speak to anyone I know, except to have a fake conversation... No opportunity to say good bye...except some hastily written suicide note that will be misinterpreted as the ramblings of a mentally ill person... I have not had much comfort in life, not blaming anyone, just that I am usually alone and isolated, and I guess it is not a surprise I will die alone in isoltion.