Hi I don't really know what to say except I don't think I can cope anymore. All my reasons are probably silly to you all. I have been lucky in life- but I have wasted opportunities and chances and have ended up a failure. I am worthless, horrible, anxious and mean. I literally bully my boyfriend and he has now cut me out because he can't handle it. I am a self pitying cow and I don't know how to change. I just hate who I am. I want to shut off my head.