During my most brutal battle with depression, I sought out anti-depressants to help me find the strength to live. I knew very little about medication at the time. My family doctor prescribed effexor to me. First it was at 75 mg, but since it was not helping I was eventually raised to a 375 mg prescription of effexor. I always felt just as much longing to die, and just as much depression as ever. I earnestly attempted to take my own life twice while on this prescription. I felt very little in the way of side effects. Every time the dosage went up I felt a little detatched and dizzy. My mouth would be dry. Those feelings would pass in a week or so. However, my sex drive was not diminished (unfortunately, since that would have helped a lot if it was) and my depression never curbed. Thinking about it in retrospect, I am wondering if maybe the pill they gave me was just a placebo. How often would doctors prescribe placebos instead of actual medication? Wouldn't that be kind of playing God with my life if I actually needed help? Especially after 2 years of being on that dose, and still needing help as much as ever. Does this happen? Or maybe effexor just didn't work for me, and my psychiatrist and doctor were too dense to try any alternatives. If it was a placebo - I gotta admit I'd feel pretty violated.