First of all, I was told many times by people that suicide is wrong and is a permanent solution to temporary problems. I was also told that suicide will never be justified and if you suicide, you will be sent straight to hell, whether you were good, kind person or not. I mostly agree with the above statements. But I am going to be realistic. I have already endured 10 years of severe depression and there is no guarantee that life will turn around. I go to bed every night wishing I die in my sleep. I often wonder I would rather suicide and be sent to hell because my current life is hellish enough that it can't be that much different. I am tired of humiliations, pains, sufferings, constant tries and failures and hopelessness. Would you live such life?