I feel very ill and depressed tonight. The thought of death is so comforting. The woman whom i love has turned her back on me and i know ill never find anyone else like her. I wish i could cry, i havent cried in so long. This desolate empty feeling is unbearable. God i just want her back. so fucking bad. Ive been sitting here for hours drinking myself fucking stupid and i just cant take it. i seriously cannot stand this pain for much longer. It really is all too much. im sorry if my post is justttr rambling and wasted your time, im just drunk and miserable.