I've never wanted to do it so much. My life has fallen apart. I got dumped last night, but then he can back and said he was sorry, so I took him back. Was I wrong? I don't know. I'm having to look after EVERYONE else apart from me. Make promises like not to SH, and yet my friends do it anyway. I get abuse everyday, and yet no one cares. I don't care about my family now, they have put me through hell and back for 15 years, they can all get lost as far as I am concerned. I'm not calling for help, I'm just going to do it.