I wish I could have found this place long time ago.
I feel like I truly belong here.
I can be truly myself in here. not like any other places in this world...
no one wants to hear when I tell them I want to die.
someone commited suicide today. and I was like
wow... I am so happy for her... I wish I could do that.
I know I can do it but I can't beucase I can't hurt my family or friends.
funny thing is that I can't end my life beucase I care about other ppl more than myself.
I wish I can be really selfish and just kill myself.
Especially this year, I've heard this qutestion a lot
" Do you have any plans?"
I didnt before but this question made me really think about it.
I know exactly what to do to suceed....
it's matter of time and matter of someone triggers me.
I guess I am such a chicken that waiting for someone to piss me off
so I can actually kill myself....
so my life is depends on other people.
I am worthless, meaningless, hopeless...
I am nothing...
I shouldn't even breath air becuase I am wasting other ppl's oxygen in this world. I blame my parents for having me.
They are fucking irresponsible...
I feel like I truly belong here.
I can be truly myself in here. not like any other places in this world...
no one wants to hear when I tell them I want to die.
someone commited suicide today. and I was like
wow... I am so happy for her... I wish I could do that.
I know I can do it but I can't beucase I can't hurt my family or friends.
funny thing is that I can't end my life beucase I care about other ppl more than myself.
I wish I can be really selfish and just kill myself.
Especially this year, I've heard this qutestion a lot
" Do you have any plans?"
I didnt before but this question made me really think about it.
I know exactly what to do to suceed....
it's matter of time and matter of someone triggers me.
I guess I am such a chicken that waiting for someone to piss me off
so I can actually kill myself....
so my life is depends on other people.
I am worthless, meaningless, hopeless...
I am nothing...
I shouldn't even breath air becuase I am wasting other ppl's oxygen in this world. I blame my parents for having me.
They are fucking irresponsible...