i just realized that it has been over a year since i posted anything ... i just read my last post from last year... And I can't believe how emotional it was... I think it was the most heartfelt thing I have ever written. because it was the truth. The god's honest truth. just wow... wow. I think I want to read it again. Actually made me feel better because now... I feel the same way and It really just saved me from typing this all over. hahaha. if your interested, here is the link to the post i made. http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?t=64225 just... wow. makes me want to cry.