Last year i've lost a best friend and my mother, earlier this year a dear old lady that was like a mother to me than last week i've lost another best friend. You'd think that this will be the end of the problem but far from it.. my brother and son both have cancer and my other brother threatens to commit suicide...he is hiding as he was on watch.. but fooled them and ran away...now we dont know where he is or doing... nerve wrecking situation on all account. I'm myself suicidal and see no reason to continue, i've lost everything dear to my heart, what's left is about to be lost. I feel to be living in a desert, no road to follow, no post to indicate direction or else... i am at lost and dont know what to do anymore.
I'm followed by a psichiatrist yet there is so much he can do (too much has happened and he feels its overwhelming even for him) so of little comfort. 'Resist' he says... resist??? tell me how for G. sake! to what can I hold on to? there is no future, no hope, but sorrow ahead and cant take any more of it. I am about to give up.. cant take anymore of that pain and when i do, i wont miss it... cant be in the medical field without knowing how to do it and not doing it right
I'm followed by a psichiatrist yet there is so much he can do (too much has happened and he feels its overwhelming even for him) so of little comfort. 'Resist' he says... resist??? tell me how for G. sake! to what can I hold on to? there is no future, no hope, but sorrow ahead and cant take any more of it. I am about to give up.. cant take anymore of that pain and when i do, i wont miss it... cant be in the medical field without knowing how to do it and not doing it right