these last two days i have been extremely depressed. I havent had suicidal thoughts like this except at two of the worst points in my life, one of which i tried to hang myself. I wrote something awful , im writing how im going to kill myself. im not well.
im thinking of going to a therapist or something tomorow. Im tired of these terrible thoughts and nightmares, and i still have one thing to live for. I really cannot go to a hospital. do you think theres a chance id have to go to one?
If you tell a therapist, hospital, police officer etc... that you are imminentaly suicidal (i.e. if oyu tell them you will do it in the next 24 hours or that you have a set date and a reasonable way to carry it out, or something to that effect) they are legaly obligated to have you detained for mental evaluation. Now, in no way am i trying to dissuade you from telling someone about it but i think you should first tell a friend or family member. someone who wont have the men in white knocking on your front door. because, forced incarceration can do a lot more harm then good (trust me i know all about incarceration and itd detrimental effects on the human psyche).