i am having a very bad time of it at the moment. every day, all day i wish a comet would hit me. i cant and wont kill myself but i want to die. or have everything in my head erased. i rang the doctors today and i told them i need help now. i have seen them before. i told receptionist i wanted to die. she told me there was no more bookings for the day and to call in the morning to see if any cancellations were in. i hung up. they have my number and 9 hrs later i have still not had a call from them. my doctor obviously doesnt care. and why should i. im here so a small part of me does care. but i hate me.