So valentines day came and left and im still not with him. IM SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF! I wish i could just do it, just grab that rope and end it all! Everytime i think its going to b ok and we can b together again, he turns around and tells me he needs more time, i cant take it! if i was gone then he could just get on with his life and not have to worry about some fuck wit hanging around asking to b wit him all the time. I wish i could cry enough tears to kill me, i wish i could just go to sleep and never wake up! Y is this so hard? i want it to b over. Im sick of saying 'i cant take this n e more' then continuing to take it. im so stupid, so gutless, and so hopeless without him!:sad: