Feeling exceptionally depressed. I don't really know how to cope. I haven't been talking to anyone specifically about my depression lately, except for my counselor every 2 weeks, and I haven't been talking to anyone in general, really. Overall, I just feel truly lonely. I could talk to my family, but to me, for various reasons, they're a last resort. Monitoring my diet is losing it's effectiveness in distracting me from my suicidal thoughts; it's just frustrating now. Exercise just feels like drudgery--go figure. I feel like things will only get worse from now on. I've had this ambition to at least pointlessly make it past another birthday, even though it's just another shitty day. In spite of all this, I've yet to self-harm since December. What am I doing...?