CHarming of me huh? well, this time it aint about sf, or anything to do with sf, instead, ITS ABOUT HOW PISSED OFF I AM BECAUSE MY BLOOD TESTS CAME BACK FINE! K, so they come back fine after a lethal overdose on one of the most popular things taken nowadays to die in overdoses, and its somethng my friend killed herself with, AND I FAILED, HOW STUPID AND RIDULOUS AM I HUH? I HATE MY BODY, I HAD EVERY INTENTION OF KILLING MYSELF, I RESEARCHED, SAID THE AMOUNT I TOOK COULD SEVERELY DAMAGE A DAMN ADULT AND LOOK AT ME, NOPE, I'M A DAMN CHILD AND NO DAMAGE DONE, JUST SOME STUPID PAIN WHICH I HAVE NO IDEA WHY NOW, BECAUSE IT SAYS THE BLOOD TESTS ARE FUCKING FINE, LA LA LA, FINE FINE FINE, OH JOY JOY !JOY! WELL FINE, NEXT TIME I WONT TAKE THEM ALL ONCE I FIND OUT SOMETHING THAT DESTROYS ME, ILL WAIT UNTIL I HAVE MORE THAN ENOUGH, EVEN THOUGH I DID IN THE FIRST DAMN PLACE!!! :cry: Fuck sake. I always fail. I feel like punching something until my fist is black and blue. I feel like running onto train tracks and just... 'I'd never know what hit me'. I feel like cutting everywhere. I'm so UPSET, I'm so ANGRY. >.< So what the fuck would explain the severe pain I'm in? Huh? Pathetic. Sometimes I swear they mix up my blood tests with someone else.