yea yea yea

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by emilyroselovesu, Dec 3, 2010.

  1. emilyroselovesu

    emilyroselovesu Well-Known Member

    everyday i feel like my family and friends hate me
    they would be much better without me
    they dont love me
    they could care less about me
    i am so embarrassed of my existence
    i try to picture my families lives without me
    all i see is happiness, laughter, fun.
    i really dont see the reason why i am here

    people tell me to be positive
    it will make me feel better
    i have tried.
    doesnt quite work.
    but i think do i even want to be happy anymore?
    its so scary being happy these days
    its a weird feeling
    but you know once youre happy
    you have to go back downhill
    thats just how life works
    i feel like i am so past the point of depression
    that there is no turning back
    i am always going to be like this