Ok...so when I moved into my apartment, just 2 days after my wife left me...one of neighbors reached out and we started drinking and hanging going to bars etc. He found out I was in AA...and told me that I didnt need that stuff. A couple of weeks ago, he started asking me about AA, where the meetings were, etc. Turns out he is an AA member too, and had 10 years of sobriety. I had 4 months, before I went back out on my current bender. So he and I started going back to the meetings. There are 2 meetings each night in my town. One at 7pm, and at another location, an 8pm meeting. The 8pm group, is my home group and is where my sponser is. My neighbor likes to go to the 7pm meetings..so he can get home and watch TV. I went to a meeting with him on Wednesday at the 7pm meeting. Stayed sober that night. Yesterday, after work, I stopped for gas, and sure as shit, I instinctively bought 2 24 oz cans of Steel Reserve. I told my neighbor some bullshit excuse that I was tired and didnt feel like going to a meeting (All I really wanted to do was drink). Well it started coming up towards 8pm...I started feeling guilty to what I did to him, and myself...and dragged my sorry rear down to the 8pm meeting. I havent been there in like a month! I broke down, cried like a baby....and told the guys I was an idiot. They said, nope...your not an idiot...your an alcoholic. After the meeting...and I dont know why, and mind you...I hadnt eaten supper yet, and I need to go to bed around 1030pmish....and this was like 915pm...I stopped at the local liquor store and bought another 24 oz can of SR. So I still feel like an idiot, but yep, I am an alcoholic. If you don't drink, and are thinking about it....stay away. It's no damn good.