i lie. i lie cause i'm scared of being called a liar. i cant prove that certain things are wrong with me, other than my trichotillomania, but in general, if i go in with syptoms, they'll just think i'm researching it cause its not physical things. how do you prove you've ocd? i do things i know are wierd, if i know i do them, why dont i stop them? or I hear things? how can you say i hear things i dont think i should how do i say it to them and have them not doubt me? voices are in your head. you cant prove them. i hate not being able to prove stuff. :dry: now i know it obviously is.. but sometimes i just think all this crap is in my head and i'm imagining it just to feel special or some shit like taht because thats what everyone keeps telling me it is, so how can the majority and countless professionals be wrong? see i try not to let on that i am awear of my "problems" as when i first went in and said "i feel like this, so therefore i think i am suffering with ..this...." they laughed and said no i wasnt and it was a phaase and i'd be fine. 12 years i've been this way how the hell can it be a phase.