I can't hold on like this any more. I really have tried. I am actually suprised I made it this far. But now that I have left school, and have no one to talk to, it's impossible. So many things have gone wrong, and I'm sick of being on this stupid world. I now realise that time is not the answer, there is no answer. Either die, or be in pain forever. Even if I escape from my family, I will still have the memories every night, which seem so real. I was destined to never have a life and destined to die. I'm ready to just go. Become another statistic, it's all I deserve after all.