I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. Sorry for all the topics, I'm having a very very bad month. I'm sure you're all tired of this crap by now. I'm at the point where if I don't get help I'll be dead within a couple of days. There are no pills left to od on. I'm down to cuts and slitting. I don't know how to get help. It's so embarassing to need help. My mom doesn't believe anything I tell her. She either gets mad or threatens to have me thrown in a mental place. I don't know what to do. I get more and more suicidal everyday. I'm going to go try and hurt myself if I can and see how far I get now. Maybe all the way, who knows. Goodnight.