another day, another OD. it never works (although I have come very close) yet I still hold onto the hope that one day it will. I know it's damaging me. I can feel it physically. as long as i die in the end I don't care how long it takes or how painful it is. Nothing can be worse than the emotional pain i am in. my life is a living hell. the sooner i remove myself from it, the better. There is nothing left for me here in this world. I'm just one big mistake. I wasn't meant to be.