Well this is another night with no sleep. That makes 3 now and I am starting to see things out the corner if my eyes and my OCD has kicked in to overdrive. I know that some of the things I am doing is nuts but I can't help it. I am so sick of living like this. I have no family and no friends that I see on a regular basis. It's been 5 days since I have said more than 3 words to anyone but the chinchilla, Lets face it, no one would care or notice if I just ended it right now. Why don't I?? I just don't know why I don't. I hate myself, my life and what I have become. Death really does seem like the best way. No life, No problems. GOD I AM COWARD, Why can't I just do this.