I'm new here and I'm not going to stick around for long. You all make me so sad, I can't believe so many want to die. I wish I could take at least one of your places, cause I know some of you will succeed. I rang Lifeline, talked to someone, but I have so many problems, from my past to the present, its not that I want to die but I have to die! My own existence is the problem. My parents died when I was little, my guardian died not long after. Death is all I've known since I was little. All I know is you can't trust anyone, I had no childhood, I was abused since I was little, I have no self-esteem. I don't want to talk to shrink, I did once and even he was overwhelmed by it all! I am unable to be helped. I am the walking dead! Please reconsider, if you have a chemical imbalance then see a doctor and get meds, if you feel melancholy, get some help it will pass, if you don't have what you want, get used to it, if you want attention, try something else. I have to be in control, of myself, I mean. I never do anything in half measures, there will be no attempts, just one fatal moment, that is all. This life is shit and I would trade places with anyone else so I could have part of a good life! Please God, Bless this soul.