I don't know whom here believes in God. It doesn't really matter to me, because I'm not aiming to evangelize or get into any religious debates. Honestly, I'm not really big on Christianity, but throughout my life I've done a lot of searching and..I just have to believe there's someone there, someone whom cares very dearly for us. When I'm suicidal and I get so low..I just think about him, and everything just seems to get better. Sometimes its my only weapon. So whether you believe it or not, I'm just going to tell you how much you are loved. When we weep and cry alone in our rooms, we must know this: He is watching us cry. Counting our every tear that we shed. He wishes things didn't have to be so hard. We are not alone. When we think we can't continue, that things are the worst they could be, the times we want to give up the most: He is telling us to hold on, that we are worth too damn much to throw ourselves away. If we listen carefully, we can hear his voice in our heads. Let us pay no attention to the other voices that insult and slander us. They are liars and can't be trusted. To us failures, us fallen, us social misfits: We are blessed! He loves us most, because we need him the most. We are inadequate and insufficient, but unlike society, he just doesn't care... He loves the broken hearted, the forgotten, the poor in spirit, the betrayed, the hurting, the screwed up, the walking mental case. To us abandoned and unloved: We are not so! Any human love that we could possibly attain will eventually pass. It is horribly finite and fickle. But I tell you, that his love is infinite and loyal. You will always have it, whether you return it or not. It is unconditional. To the abused, the manipulated, the harassed: He will distribute justice in some form or another. He will tend to you, and work to heal the damage that was done. To us suicidal, us self inflicting: We break his heart when we hurt ourselves... he's watching something that he made, something that he knows down to its dna strands..destroy itself. Can you imagine someone that you deeply love do this to themselves? It feels horrible. Whether we know it or not, we are loved. We are under his watch and are never alone. The horrible things that happen us..the things we have to go through..I don't why it is so :sad: . I guess its just how this world works. But I do know that through it all, he's there. He'll always be. God bless you, you are in my prayers.